Skyfall
Yesterday me and some friends went to the cinema for the latest Bond movie! I've never been a huge fan of the Bond-movies but this one was really really good!! Also love Adele's "Skyfall", the movie theme...
Today I had lunch with Ida in town, I was soooo happy to finally find an adaptor to connect my computer to my TV! And I also managed to get it work! I don't need a man! ;-)
Now I'm up for a powerwalk with Olivia. ♥
Sandy
Some pictures from when I visited New York in June last year!
I truly hope the storm will be over as quick as possible... Maybe it is the start of the 2012-scenario the Maya-indians predicted? Let's hope not.
Waking up
Standing
In a state where ideals feel remotely yet not remarkably neccessary
Where history occupies mind
Where most things are just flashing by without closer affection
Where feeling safe, but yet so scared
Lucky and satisfied, but yet so lack
In control, but yet so lost
In a state where being just...here.
There are so many places I would like to be.
But in this moment, would not want to be anywhere else.
Residence
Smile
When the national SAT after 8 hours was written we all went home; ate and changed to go out dancing! At Glasklart we danced til they closed and I'm serious when I say I have never wanted to sleep that badly... After talking (or laughing would probably describe the conversation better) to Patrik I fell asleep right away! Today I'm still tired but it was definitely worth it ;)
Autumn break
Had a cosy day with Ida today! Today's my first day of Autumn break, but tomorrow I'll write the national Scholastic Aptitude Test so I suppose it actually starts after that...♥
Elina's
Speak up
Trust me, I'd like to.
I'd like to write down my feelings and my everyday-life both to inspire but also to help myself and others who feel the same way; I have received mails from a couple who do.
But... Unfortunately, today's social system is too vulnerable. It is dangerous and hurtful in so many levels to expose oneself like that – it is simply not worth it. Again, unfortunately. I spoke with Carolin just today about it, about the ability some people have. To push down others who grow. Again, a thought-provoking quote is "if someone is trying to bring you down: it only means you're above them". Well, we are all humans. We all get affected by negativity, more or less. It is easier to take in bad criticism than to let one be encouraged by the positive. I just wish that... Instead of people being jealous: they would be inspired and take part of the energy of others.
I have one friend who write amazingly – but has put a password on her blog. Another one who closed it down. Mainly due to unworthy people reading it. I cannot help imagining how many people they'd inspire...
That is why I operate my blog on a relatively unpersonal level, where i feel comfortable.
Where I can choose whether to keep certain happenings and feelings for myself, or to share it.
I have purposes. I have beliefs. It is just that... Not everyone is ready to take part of them. Yet.
Night music
Have too much energy to sleep so I'm just browsing through some nice music! When I was younger I used to listen to American radio stations to get access to the latest music, but now I have a close DJ friend that provides me with songs at least as good ;)
Tomorrow we'll take school photos, senior year in compulsory school! Ahh, time flies by so fast. Too fast. Yet you long for so much... But sometimes you have to remind yourself to appreciate what's right now! ♥
Street lights
Love listening to old playlists.
This song is from a playlist from last December. It is not a song I define remarkably amazing, but there is something about it that makes me recall feelings and contemporary coming stories.
So much but so little things have happened since. Unpredictable at that time. Maybe it is always like that, for everyone? Predicting seems impossible when locking back, but still, you often have a perception of what's coming... So when the script take its own turns... It surprises you, yet we would not want to be without them... Sometimes you wish you could go back, just to hand yourself some hints. But I suppose... You can't live that way. So why... Indulge in the past when the only thing we can do something about is what's ahead... Instead take wisdom from previous happenings and from time to time, visit memory lane. Just don't stay there...
Just...Let the street lights guide you. Maybe from time to time you ask yourself "What the hell am I doing here", but within near future realize you were in the exact right place. How's that as a line to pretend you saying to yourself in a year? You may not have gone where you intended to go, but maybe you ended up where you needed to be.
So shine bright, rock solid
For one and a half hour more, I am seventeen years old.
My first intention is a scary thought. Me? I am not done with being a child. I am not an adult. I get a weird feeling in my stomach, telling me to fold myself together under a blanket and hide. Telling me I am not ready, not strong enough.
This is where I have decided to think twice.
It is hard to think twice when negativity appears, especially in the middle of math tests, driver's license studying and all that. But referring to my post about zooming out to percept your existence, zoom out is what I have to do now. So that I can remind myself.
I am still me.
For every day, even on a special day as tomorrow, I grow. Inside out.
For every day that passes, I climb one step closer towards my goal in finding myself, my passions and my purposes.
I have conquered obstacles seeming too big.
I have gone through things considered as among the hardest things possible, and turned it into strength.
– May not be showed on the outside, however, but as long as I am convinced I am satisfied.
Why... Would turning 18 years old be else special? It only makes me more independent on the paper.
It does not make me a different person, only the same person with new doors opened.
So don't you worry child.
Rock solid, shine bright with diamond sparkling, big eyes.
Tomorrow when I wake up, I will be eighteen years old.
Synonym: Life will begin, for real. Only you decide wether to keep your eyes closed, or to open them and sparkle.
Elina 18
Just had an amazing pasta/chicken/pesto dish with Italian ice cream for dessert, Elina had rented a cosy restaurant called Aldo and we, about 20 people, had a fun Elina-quiz and I had a couple of nice chats with some new but also old friends. Unfortunately I'm not completely recovered so I'm taking an earlier bus home! But I had a super evening, totally needed after a few days in the bed/couch! Good night :)
Good night
Take risks. If you win, you will be happy. If you lose, you will be wise.
Calm
Heeey.
Today I quit the struggeling and let myself realize that I though am sick and have had a fever since saturday, so I'm staying home from school... So now I'll make some pancakes for brunch and just stay in today, watch a movie! Found this cosy song yesterday, perfectly fits my mood.
Pride and Prejudice
Today I've still got a little fever and a sore throat, but I had to go to school so that I wouldn't miss any math reviews and so that I could get the book I wanted to read in the course English C! We're supposed to read a book of old English literature and to make a literary analysis. I picked "Pride and Prejudice" by Jane Austen. Mainly because I've heard much good about it but also because it was the book with most romance in it, haha.
