People
I don't think you actually know how you're doing, until you open up yourself to real people, who you truly can feel care about you. It's important those things, talking. To dare to open up to the right people. I mean, you're surrounded by six billion people in this world, you're not supposed to walk alone. Just find the right people worth walking beside.
I think, that the ability of taking contact with new people and the ability to connect with the right people, contributes to your goal in finding yourself. It's hard, I know. You've probably heard of those people, who "steal" your energy. Don't misunderstand me, a relation with another person is all about giving and taking different types of energies and helping eachother to a better life. But a relation with a person who takes more energy than she gives, is not a relation worth having in the end. I bet you all know what types of relations I'm talking about.
So tonight I've had an insight, my eyes are now suddenly more open. What I've learned, I'll share with you when I've tried it in real life and when I'm ready. Until then, my advice to you is not to be afraid to share your feelings with people you can trust and take advice. You don't always know what's best for you, stress easily turn you to the wrong directions. It may seem easy, shuffing the hard thoughts back in your head and continuing (but with a few stones lying on your shoulders). But after a while, it doesn't last. The stones get heavier. In life, I've already been, and going, through a lot and lately my head is starting to ache everyday, especially after school. I confess I'm afraid of not being good enough, or doing the right things. But after tonight, a small stone fell of my shoulders. I feel that I have people in my life who truly care and believe in me. A few. But a few is all that is needed. And it's not until you start growing together with those true people, that you actually start living. For real.
